There have been countless stories that have been written on blogs, emails, novels, MySpace and even newspapers about gay men and their life stories. If you really wanna change your life only YOU can do it.
They're desperate, breathing but not living, they're here but not with themselves. I'm 16 now and I don't give up my struggle and will not. I also told my best friend and she only thanked me for sharing this. I'm not.Īnd it's the matter of being a human. That's the perceptivity and that's the matter. If you don't have a boy or girlfriend you cant exist in world. When you say you're a gay they only laugh at you or ignore you.My mum's still silently crying why she's punished like this. Things not good here.Some people even don't know what a 'gay' means. And of course this doesn't change anything too. When I say I was a gay to my parents, I was immediately send a psychologist to become a normal. It's just always hiding in a place of our lives.I wanna show people this,the truth.They of course don't wanna understand me. It really shocked me(Guess how we not acknowledged are). I see homosexuality exists before I was born. But the books doesn't only help me to forget the devil.
What happened then? I continue living with the devil.I can only forget the devil when I was reading a book.
When I was in Qur'an Course in a mosque everyone says: 'Homosexual demons are invading the world.This is the doomsday!'Īnd so I hate homosexuality.It was all a demon in your soul and must be punished at once.Everyday I went the mosque and prayed God to become a normal and rescue myself from this devil. It was only a part of me, hiding and a silent part. 'Can a Turk be a gay? 'That's a question asking to the public in my country.That's a question about me.